Paulina Porizkova opens up about complex grief over death of Ric Ocasek
Paulina Porizkova has opened the grief and anger she continues to wrestle with following her estranged husband Ric Ocasek’s death, saying she believes ‘he made a mistake’ that ‘he did not dwell to appropriate’ when he lower her out of his will.
The 56-year-old mannequin, who not too long ago went public along with her relationship with screenwriter-director Aaron Sorkin, detailed the complex emotions she nonetheless has for her late husband within the remaining installment of the video collection she filmed for Yahoo Life, throughout which she additionally recalled the ‘nightmare’ second she discovered his lifeless physique of their Manhattan house.
‘After having spent 35 years with him, it type of felt like I used to be lacking an arm or a leg. Without him I had lost half of my id,’ she defined. ‘I believe of Ric day-after-day… typically angrily.
Candid: Paulina Porizkova detailed the complex emotions she nonetheless has for her late husband Ric Ocasek within the remaining installment of the video collection she filmed for Yahoo Life!
‘But as time has passed by, I believe about him with an increasing number of tenderness,’ she added. ‘He made a mistake, however then he did not dwell to appropriate it, and that is not his fault. And I’m going to decide on to go together with that as a result of there’s no one to inform me completely different.’
Paulina was the one who discovered The Cars frontman useless of their shared Manhattan townhouse in September 2019. She spoke to Yahoo Life about the second she walked into his room and realized he wasn’t respiratory.
‘I bear in mind considering, “Oh, they never show this part in movies” — like one of the insane ideas that simply flitters by you. I noticed what occurred. I felt his cheek whereas considering, “Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God,”‘ she recalled.
‘And in my thoughts, I type of calmly walked out of the room and went downstairs and informed the boys [sons Jonathan, 27, and Oliver, 22] what had occurred, however as a substitute I began wailing and my legs gave out and I could not stroll, so I needed to crawl downstairs on all fours.
While mourning the rocker over the previous year and a half, she has battled despair, anxiousness, and rage after studying he had lower her out of his will — leaving her with none money, together with her personal earnings as a mannequin.